One day, I
woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah the beauty of
God's creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised God
for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence
He asked me:
"Do you love me?" I answered, "Of course, God! You
are my Lord and Savior!" Then He asked, "If you were
physically handicapped, would you still love me?"
I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my
body and wondered how many things I wouldn't; be able to do, the
things that I took for granted. And I answered, "It would be
tough Lord, but I would still love You."
Then the Lord said:
"If you were blind, would you still love my creation?" How
could I love something without being able to see it? Then I thought
of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still
loved God and His creation. So I answered, "It's hard to think
of it, but I would still love you." The Lord then asked me,
"If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"
How could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood.
Listening to God's Word is not merely using our ears, but our
hearts. I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still
listen to your word."
The Lord then asked:
If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?" How could I
praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing
from our very heart and soul. It never matters what we sound like.
And Praising God is not always with a song, but when we are
persecuted, we give God praise with our words of thanks. So I
answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still
praise Your Name."
And the Lord
"Do you really love Me?" With courage and a strong
conviction, I answered boldly, " Yes Lord! I love you because
you are the one and true God!" I thought I had answered well,
"THEN WHY DO YOU SIN?"
I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."
"THEN WHY IN TIMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST? WHY ONLY
IN TIMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY THE EARNEST?"
No answers. Only tears.
The Lord continued:
"Why only sing at fellowships and retreats?
Why seek Me only in times of worship?
Why ask things so selfishly?
Why ask things so unfaithfully?"
The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.
"Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the good
news? Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when offer My
shoulder to cry on? Why make Excuses when I give you opportunities
to serve in My Name?"
I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.
blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I have
blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away.
I have revealed My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge. I
have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown My
blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you
servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard
your prayers and I have answered them all."
"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"
I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief.
I had no excuse. What could I say to this? When my heart had cried
out and the tears had flowed, I said, "Please forgive me Lord.
I am unworthy to be Your child." The Lord answered,
My Grace, My Child." I asked, "Then why do you continue to
forgive me? Why do You love me so?"
The Lord answered:
" Because you are My Creation. You are my Child. I will never
When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you
shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When you are down, I will
encourage you. When you fall, I will raise you up. When you are
tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end of days,
and I will love you forever."
Never had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How
could I have hurt God as I had done? I asked God, "How much do
You love me?" The Lord stretched out His arms, and I saw His
nail-pierced hands. I bowed down at the feet of Christ, my Savior.
And for the first time, I truly prayed.