My name is David and I'm 16 years old. All my life I grew up in a
Christian home and was taught to be a good Christian boy. All my
took salvation as something I had because of how I grew up. Boy,
was I wrong.
It needs to be said that I am very intelligent. I don't mean to
it's very true, the Lord blessed me with no other talents but my
In sixth grade I became my own person. I began to create my own
life and to become very opinionated. At school, I hung out with my
and built my reputation. At home, I played the piosity game. I
smarts to learn the facts about the Bible so I could talk the talk
than most, so my theology would be so firm that my parents
wouldn’t know I
didn't know God at all. I was a Pharisee.
I wasted four years of my life like that. During that time I
angry, prideful, and absolutely lustful. I became an actor beyond
putting on the charade of religion and never giving God the time
Then I hit May of my freshman year.
The High School Leader at my church is the pastor's wife, and I've
met a woman like her. She remembered my name, after only seeing me
and she genuinely loved me. I would see her and she would run to
excited just to say hi. She was the driving force that took me to
high school trip. Her, my friend and present small group leader,
another amazing girl brought me face to face with Christ.
That was a year and a month ago. I don’t know how to put it, but
at the beach transformed me. I met the first girl I ever loved,
my first true heartbreak. I met some of the most amazing people,
the depths of what an awful person I was. That week transformed
I’ve since become a follower of the Lord, but the burdens of life
grab me. I still fall into my old life. I often find myself
putting on the
“religious” face when I’m deeply burdened, or I fall into my
The Lord has given to me an extremely sensitive spirit, so that I
often, and often am hurting from the pain of others or just from
trials. I live with a burdened heart for most of my days, and
to find happiness.
As I look at my life now, I realize that even though I am often
sad, I am happier now than I ever was before. I now have a new
burns within me. I have someone who actually understands me
with me. Though I am burdened by sorrow I have the peace of Christ
within me. Though I am a wretched and wicked man, I have Christ in
He’s not going to stop refining me, He’s going to finish all He
me. God is amazing, He loves even me, the most unlovable there
be. I am so thankful for His mercy and grace, and I beseech
reads this to never, ever don't the mask of hypocrisy that I often
leads only to sorry and heartache, and even worse, it defames God.
Your Brother In Christ
"All things work together for good for those who love Christ